I canāt.
I canāt find the time to write.
I canāt eat healthier.
I canāt find the energy to work out.
I canāt get out of debt.
I canāt reach Enlightenment.
One of the most dangerous words out there. This little word stops us in our tracks. It flings the door wide open for the mind to get in there and write a story about what a loser we are.
If I were a Superhero, I would be āI Can Woman!ā
Obviously my real Super Hero name is, āCheesy Woman.ā Cheesy and right brained. Iām so right brained I lose myself in the circles I create.
The truth is, we can. And we must. We have to learn to be connected and to stay connected. And not just ponder, write about, study, read othersā ideas about it.
We have to do it. Like now. Everyday.
Our lives are not going to stop so we can become Enlightened. We have to train in our lives. With the kids pulling on us. With the bills tugging on us. With the job not feeling like a vacation on the beach soaking up sounds of the magnificent ocean. The ocean thatās getting hotter and filling up with plastic.
Our daily lives, the trial and tribulations, are our training ground. We have to let go of the "Sound of Musicā fantasy where we arrive at a higher vibration while dancing across a flowering field on top of a majestic mountain. The trenches of our lives are our training ground.
We have to stop bullsh!ting ourselves.
We lie to ourselves. We tell ourselves that weāre on the path to Enlightenment. Maybe we are. But at this pace weāre not going to get there in this lifetime.
We know weāre not progressing much because it all still feels the same. It feels crappy.
I wouldnāt be searching for oneness if I thought it would be giving me an overwhelming feeling of crappy.
Bliss is what Iām after. Fulfillment. Deep rich authentic connection with people and life.
WTF do you mean this world is an illusion?
This whole world illusion philosophy doesnāt get me closer to feeling bliss. I donāt even understand the idea. Iām sure when I really experience oneness it will be crystal clear.
What I do understand is my daily experience of life is not what I imagine oneness will be like.
I feel like a Neanderthal in my approach to things sometimes. Simplistic. It makes me feel stupid if I let my head get too involved. But Iāve been around long enough to not believe everything I think.
The assurance that Iām doing something right is low on my list of things I give a sh!t about.
What I do care about:
Reaching oneness
Maintaining oneness
Helping lift others into oneness
Waking the freak up is an exercise in swimming upstream. Against the current. Against mass consciousness programming thatās our default.
Itās like practicing to be flexible. It hurts to stretch. I used to be so limber! But I cut yoga out years ago. I didnāt think I had time for it. Bad idea. Iām weaving it back into my routine now. And Iām feeling the difference.
We do know it all
Iām reading Stargirl with my son. Inspiring kids book. I had one of those ego voices in my head telling me Iām not writing correctly. I need to be consuming other peoples stuff so I have something to reflect on.
I love reading and pondering and being influenced by others. And I also live pretty unconventionally. I work on a screen for my day job. But I donāt surf on a screen much. My old Android phone is too cheap to hold apps. I donāt listen to news much. I know whatās going on without filling up with that. People are suffering. People are warring. People feel hopeless, trapped. The planet is crying out.
I know what I need to know to open up my heart and help raise the vibration of this planet. I just have to continue to do it. Daily. Make it my top priority. Stop telling myself I canāt.
We can manifest
I believe in the process of visualizing to manifest.
The idea of visualizing a scenario but not getting attached to the outcome is one of those ideas that triggers my, āI canāt!ā How the freak do we do this trick!? I donāt know but I know itās worth practicing.
What if we were to master this skill and synchronize visualizing world peace and planetary healing?
Itās not just a Hippy dream. And itās not just another spiritual idea to ponder.
Itās a skill we can learn and live. A skill that can lead us to bliss. A skill that can heal our planet so we have a place to be our bliss.


We definitively CAN! Thanks for the encouragement.
Maybe I can't - YET. Then it's no longer such a scary word, because I'm going to get there. I'm on my way... Just not there YETš